Daughter of Mine
I keep having this dream
And it's just not any dream you see, it's a dream of the future me.
In this dream my wife is giving birth to child I call my own
And as a grown man I understand the responsibilities of a father
I am the wall that stands between my kid and anything that can harm them
I am their knight in shining armor
A Darth Vader to a young Skywalker
I am your father.
The doctor walks in with a smile on his face and says
"It's a girl young man it's a little baby girl"
I imagine holding her for the first time thinking damn, she is my world.
She would wake up in the middle of the night crying in a fit
And as my wife gets up I hold her back and say I got this
You see we all know there are mommas boys but this right here, this is daddy's little girl so
I got this.
As I rock with her rocking back and fourth on the rocking chair she's looking at me in this gentle stare
I whisper in her ear, have no fear daddy's right here.
Fast forward and she's knee high running around in her knee highs
Screaming "daddy! daddy! look what I can do"
And she could be doing something as simple roll around and as a parent
I know what I must do, exaggerate screaming "WOW THATS SO COOL!"
I'd always want remind her that I'll forever be near, cheering her on telling her have no fear daddy's right here.
Fast forward to her teen years and I embarrass her or maybe I'm not that cool
But that doesn't stop me from acting a fool in front of her friends all hyper screaming "remember when I use to change your diapers?!"
And she'll be all like OMG dad while covering her ears
I'd yell at the top of my lungs "HAVE NO FEAR DADS EMBARRASSMENT WILL RIGHT BE HERE!"
Fast forward she's fresh out of college and life's a gamble like a deck of cards
She's telling me she isn't ready and the struggle of life is getting hard.
I'd put my arm around her and say "listen love keep your chin lifted and never give up,
Life is never easy but you're my daughter so that automatically you makes tough"
And speaking of deck cards as her king I know that one day she's going to be some jacks queen of hearts
And in the game of love she's going to have to play it smart
Because she is already a diamond so she won't have time for spades
And she needs someone to remind her of that everyday.
But if a joker tries to clown my baby
I'd deal him these clubs and leave him scattered all over the floor like 52 pick up
But I digress.
Fast forward its her wedding day and we'll have our father daughter dance
And as I hand her to her man
With tears in my stare I'd whisper in her ear
Have no fear daddy will always be right here.
Fast forward I'm an old man now and my time is getting close
My daughter right beside me tears dripping down her nose
She grabs my hand and tells me she's never been afraid because I have was always been near
Then she smiles and says with laughter behind her eyes pointing to her heart and says "have no fear dad you will always be right here.
What a dream right?
I honestly can't wait in due time
To have the privilege and the honor to meet that daughter of mine.
A Black Fairytale
Once upon a time in a land called freedom, lived a beautiful Princess who was cursed for no reason
Now this Princess didn't have just any curse like Sleeping Beauty or Cinderella, in fact,
Her curse at birth was her skin color being black.
She was looked at differently, judged and labeled as an outcast
She would wear clothing with bright colors so that way she can blend in with the contrast
She would get stopped by Knights of the kingdom
In fearsome of her opinion that would one day would change their corrupt system.
Even though the King and Queen of the land were the same color as her
That still did not stop the violence and racism that occurred.
One day the Princess came across her fairy god mother
Who told the her that she was like no other
There was greatness to her, more than just living in the ghetto
She did not need no Prince Charming with a glass slipper or any royal fellow
She would make it her own, earn every last dime and put on her own stilettos.
She told her Princess you're gonna make it one day
And you should not care what other people may say
The Princess replied Fairy Godmother I don't need your praises I need your prayers
Pray that I take it easy on them, pray that I make it fair
I am my own heir, from the bottom of my toes to the tips of my hair
I am not scared, I have no ware or tears in my affairs.
They do not know that my skin is sweet like coco beans
That are delicacies to kings and queens
They do not know that the value of my worth is more than gold plated diamond dreams
There is diamond in my genes, there is gold running through my bloodstream
They can either be on my team or deal with my shoulders being colder than ice cream.
You see, the Princess always believed that to live ever so happily the only way you have to be is you
And don't let anyone falsify your being or tell you things that aren't true
You are God sent, not to be condemned for breathing
And through all the beating, the bleeding, the teasing, the thieving, the screaming, the cheating, the feeling of grieving
You must know that black don't crack nor does it bend
This fucked up fairytale is real this shit ain't pretend
So to you my friend
I am here to remind you that YOU are made to ascend
And know that in the depths of your soul you are royalty until...
I feel like now and days a good conversation doesn't go a long way
You see it's like job meeting someone new
That much is true
You gotta put in work like the rents due
So if meeting someone is like a job and I'm trying get the highest pay
I hope you can formally accept my résumé.
I stand at about 6 feet tall with a personality like no other
I'm well educated, well mannered, a peanut butter colored brother.
My strengths are responsibility, stability, a sense of chivalry and sympathy
A consistency to love you unconditionally with efficiency
As well as nobility and civility with the ability to rhyme words with humility.
I am trust worthy, I am worldly
I show patience, I show mercy
I look for ways to make you happy for the sake of making you happy
I crack jokes, I'm wacky
I'm never flashy, I stay classy never trashy
I'll carry your bag I'll be your caddie, gladly
I ain't your pops but I'll be your daddy
Oh yea I'm pretty nasty
And if you can't already tell
Yes, I eat the box, well.
I have these hands but they're only here to touch you, caress you, hold you and squeeze you
But I will bring the hand of God down on any man who has the slightest thought of disrespecting you
And that's just me protecting you.
Now I can talk about my strengths all day, it can be ceaseless
But every man that shows strength, has a weakness.
I'm a perfectionist, I worry too much about getting it right
I have a vision but sometimes I lose sight
Of who I am so I might
Depend on you to believe in me like Peter Pan so I can take flight.
I avoid arguments if I know it'll lead to fight
And I know that's wrong, I'm not trying to ignite
A fire in you despite how I get you tight
I don't wanna upset, no, I'm just trying to be polite.
I'm stubborn, I'm prideful
I am mindful that sometimes I can be spiteful.
I have insecurities
I've done wrong, I have sins in my purity
But that never affects my maturity
Word to me.
My word is bond my word is key
I just hope you can see
I will try my hardest to be the man you need from me.
And I know your heart has been broken too many times
But if it helps I'll give you a piece of mine for your peace of mind
You can write this all on a contract from me to sign.
So if I qualify for this position you are trying to fill
Just know it goes beyond a Netflix and Chill.
I hope I answered all the questions you wanted to address
I wish you nothing less than the best
Thank you for this opportunity I'm truly blessed
-References available upon request-
Corny Love Poem
I wanna love like I never loved before
Love like sailing open seas and selling all the seashells by the seashore
Love like hero sandwiches, a dollar drink with some chips from the corner store
Like great sleep and loud snores
I wanna love like a good workout, deep in my core
I wanna love love more.
Love like ink to a page
I wanna love like fees getting waived
Like being paid more than minimum wage
I wanna love intensely
I wanna love immensely
Like being held gently
Love like recess in elementary
Like big smiles and being friendly
I wanna love like it's complementary
I wanna love like connecting beards & goatees
And perfectly thrown frisbees
Love like autumn trees
Like lemonades and ice teas
I wanna love like honey to my ears
As in listening to you speak to me so sweetly
Like conversations without words
Body language you see
I wanna love your mind, body and soul
The holy trinity.
I wanna love like you opening up to me and me comforting you in everything you say
Open up your heart to me like doors on a summer day
I wanna love like missing you when we're together and still feeling like I'm far away
I wanna love like a cliche.
Love like tipsy words from Hemingway
I wanna love like being an author and then writing about all the types of love I wanna be in
I wanna love like courageous losses and humbled wins
Love like goosebumps on my skin
Like big foreheads and butt chins
I wanna love like each line in this poem has been
But I'd wanna love you like it's endless.
Like I'm relentless
Love like words I'd never even say like stupendous and tremendous
Shit I wanna love like it's offensive
Like how dare they be so in love they must demented.
Then I wanna love like we're mad in the head
Love like fresh sheets on a bed
Like water being tread
Love so precise it's like needle to a thread
Love like reading a book you've already read
I wanna love like my food for thought is being fed
Like breaking bread
I wanna love like everything I just said
So Im going to love it like it's all true
And I want that love to be, you.
I once knew this girl, I used to call her the winter
Not because she was cold hearted but because I met her when the snow was falling
And like the snowflakes I fell for her with no warning what I was in for.
You see she was a Capulet and I a Montague
Wait, sorry for Shakespeare reference let me rephrase that
She was a Catholic and I a Muslim
Two separate sides with little acceptance except when it comes down to affection.
We loved each other very much and believed love had no religion
But what's love versus tradition.
"Sweetheart he's not good for you, he's a Muslim
A hoodlum from Brooklyn
He would keep you locked up, oppress you, depress you, turn you to his evil ways baby know your worth before you suffer"
Said her mother,
And I would plead to her letting her know that's really not how I am and my fam would love you boo
Have faith in me like I have in you.
I once knew this girl, I used to call her the winter
She had no heat running through those icy cold veins in her
And I should've bundled up because that cold heart of hers is bitter.
It was matter of time before I realized it was over
Her cold shoulder gave the warmth of my body frostbites whenever I tried to hold her.
I don't hear from her for about a month and just like suspense I wait
Heavy hearted like I'm benching weight hoping this girl can keep it straight with me.
Only to get an invitation in the mail that reads you are cordially invited to this bitch, I mean this chicks wedding
Now this is upsetting
Maybe there's something I'm not getting, is this her way of asking for my blessing by sending an invitation for me to be attending in hopes of mending whatever's between us?
Am I that dumb?
You think all is forgiven and forgotten because you said bring a plus one?
You could have just been up front with me
Should've been like Ben Frank and kept it 100 with me
I know your momma taught you that honesty is the best policy
And honestly, understanding is probably my strongest quality
So let me tell you about this girl I knew, I used to call her the winter
Now I call her the past since the last time I saw her
I learned a valuable lesson all in all
I made a spring forward enjoying the summer sunshines waiting on the next fall.